the sweet little lies............

she is back again...i am slipping into her thoughts .......


she is killing me .....its been 2 months and am not able to concentrate.

i need help..!!

i need to concentrate.....
i need to focus .....
i need to deviate myself to other things ...!!

i often think of taking a chance ......trying to reach her but i stop myself from doing that .....i did my best and its her turn to decide ..............


if she is like ok with things ,why am i taking this to heart ??

i am not able to study at all........

all those sweet little lies are haunting me ....why am i so like unprepared ....why dint i see it coming ........i think i  was so in love with  her ....!!

but do i deserve this .,the pain ?? 


what happened to all the i-love-u's?? 
all the i wont-leave u stuff ...??
all the no-one-but-you bull shit words???

she just not only poisoned my heart but she poisoned everything around me ........everything !!

i should delete her from of my thoughts ....or should i wear this as an armor and move on with life ???

what is she going through ???

ufffff..............this is wat they call living  hell i suppose...............................

i guess i should carry this baggage called "got-betrayed" all my life  and  gift  my heart to her thoughts and see it burn in hell .....