crazy stupid me ...!

a life changing event is about to happen & i am bloody tensed about how i am gonna deal with it .
all i do is think about it all the time and at times i even freak out .i wish i handle it little more sensibly and don't screw things big time as i mostly do .

finding my way back ..........:)

hey folks ....

long tym huh ........BUSY BUSY & BUSY ......

lot to share guys ......2013 turns out to be GREAT for me .......:) 

completely over her ..its this month last year that i had to go thru lot of crap which is entirely not worthy at all......ive found her actually on facebook again ..... .she is lyk married ......working......& happy...!!

i am happy for her actually ...cozz the point is that right ....seeing her be happy ..,but she isnt with me ! thats her choice :-) my congratulations to her and  my sincere condolences to the person who married her..to be honest it irks a bit ...i think she shld maintain low profile ! anyways ...

& by the way how does Neil Armstrong feel when someone tells him ..,"sir .,u are not the first person ..."....awwwhhhh did I just say that ....??! 


Anyways ....about  neil ....,he would be crying in his grave if some one does that .........so ..sorry to spoil the party boss .,the mission u r on is an accomplished one lolzzzzz..:) being funny ...:)

chalo lets skip this crap !!

and with me life is being so nice ....!

YES i am seeing someone now and its happening :)

changing jobs..................there used to be a time when nothing used to come my way ..now its a different story all together .........!!

and abt my status now ,i think i am not single ..:)

i hate to attach the string again but this one seems so different from the one before ....

this ones clever .,independent.,beautiful .,and importantly she loves me .....i am not sure abt what to do and we both are holding on.....not yet decided what is it going to be .......i am bit scared to get into another serious relationship..(been there ....done things...seen the consequences ) 

WORK !

  field training is been going on .....nothing exciting to pen so let it be ....:)

other good news is that the dates are out .......its going to be November !!my brothers followed by my sisters marriage....................:)

it feels so good to witness love ending up being a successful one .....LUCKY ..they are ..! i am so so happy for them and i wish they have a great married life ......god bless them with all the happiness in the world....!!

aftermath effect ..!!

I stopped being myself ............
I hardly talk now-a-days .......
I lost my smile...............
I gaze at things for hours ............
I have no clue at times what i am doing ......................
I feel lonely at times.......
I fear darkness now....
I slip into thoughts just like that .......
I miss myself ....
I find it hard even to  sleep ............
I am left with questions .....................
I stopped using my phone ...........
I get scared of going to places we been together
I drink too much these days .....
I dont know whom to blame ......
I sleep late and wake up too early ........
I gave up trusting ppl .....
I regret for evrything .....
I wish to have never met u ...
I seek peace ...............

I am half dead ! I am nothin but a warm body .............!
thanks for  the aftermath effects  love ....

the douche bag.....

thanks for the adjustment lord .....

had a decent new year celebrations .....it doesn't seem any different from last year .,only difference is that i was completely a douche bag  back then ...  :)


anyways ......awh what did i do so far this year ......??

ISAS presentation ( some crap ...dont bother abt the details ) with friends .....had great fun !!
prepared a scrapbook .....went out to shop with a classmate which i tell u is one pain-in-the-ass kind of experience ..,but still i am used to that stuff na .....

what else is happening ??? hmmm ive been drinking .....drinking like a mad fish ...!! the void in me seems to be growing larger and larger .,so i am just filling it with Wine ., whisky & occasional vodka   ... :)
have to quit ....!!

 melodrama with family just got better and better ., its now playing its 12000000000th episode !! :)
miss them actually .......they just call me  every 6 hrs .....! guys love u yarr !!

the miscellaneous events:: 


phones not working .........
found a hole in my favorite red t-shirt !
missing my tie
cleared few exams .....
talking to a stranger girl ..... butterflies ;)
rides with pawan nallana ( mate ) ; he sulks a lot man ......



chalo that's all folks for now.............


live or die ...watevr u guys wish for !!

audios  !!